(Inspired by I Get to Love You by Ruelle)
One look at you and my whole life fell in line.
I opened my heart and I opened my mind to what I knew in the depths of my soul what was possible; a miracle that must be experienced to be understood. A precious seed planted 3 years prior had secretly taken root and knew “that the day had come that the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”(Anaiis Nin). One look and I opened; I understood I knew what a miracle was.
I prayed for you before I called you mine.
I prayed, I received and then…I let fear creep in. Every once of my being sang “YES!” to the tops of the highest mountains and to the infinity of the oceans. What I longed for; what I prayed for appeared, and the voice of fear that I did not deserve this ineffable love began to sneak and slither its way I to taint and deceive. False convincing arms of comfort of my chains silently wove their way around my tender and open heart.
They say love is a journey. I promise that I’ll never leave, and when it’s to heavy to carry, remember this moment with me.
Sharing your breath; flowing with ease; listening to the beat of your heart; listening; making love in the rain; seeing and sharing the world (and our own) together; hiding love notes; sharing our gifts (with each other and synergistically together); crying together; laughing together and holding space for every moment in between; holding you and knowing….I am hOMe.
I get to love you and it’s the best thing that I’ll ever do.
It’s an honor; it is my Dharma; it is my heart’s journey constantly calling me back to you.
This is a miracle.
I am not afraid.
The chains have dissolved.
The knowing lives in love and in you.
It is the best thing I will ever do.